dreams and feeling so
sorry for myself for them.
damn, am i really this sad?
i guess its weird because in real life
im quite used to being good at coping.
its almost like i have some sort of
social responsibility to be alright.
well i guess these days
i really feel apologetic towards
people because i neither want
to hear good or bad news from them,
i really don't want to hear anything
from anyone hahaha.
i think their personal emotions
pose too much negative externalities
on my personal emotions, esp since
i don't (I THINK) subject them to
that kind of emotional burden.
i guess its kinda selfish and terrible
hopefully it'll just be a phase
because i really would like
to be a Great Person Everyone Loves.
10:29 AM